Tuesday, 17 August 2010

Speed of Sight

It was only in a moment,
The speed of sight and I was finished
You were standing there in front of me
I was kneeling on the ground
Maybe only mentally,
Maybe only partially
In time it turned out all too true
Our lives weren't made for me and you

By the speed of sight I was yours
In my head I was still alive,
In my heart, lost in a forest
You're my only burning drive
In my head, I hear you sing
In my heart the phone still rings
And I hope and pray it's you,
But it's not true,
You're gone from me,
I won't look back
It's the memory
Of what we had, but gave away
And now there's nothing left.

I didn't sit down to cry,
Or write a broken love song
I just wanted to try
To say what's still inside
But then again, I'm not sure
Now you're gone and I'm still here
I have to find my way in life
With or without you by my side
And if it's God's will no me and you,
Who am I to step aside
From what's ahead, and what's in front
It's time to stand, however much
I'd rather not, but feel your touch
In my arms just now.

I'm sick, I'm dying, but only half
The other part is moving on
Not out of will or peace
But only by necessity
I'm on a train, it's called My Life
It doesn't stop for passengers
If you jump, you're lost for good
From this part of the scenery
I wish it didn't have to be,
But sometimes we can only try
And when that's done, O you and I,
Are needy for a change.

My heart got lost in the speed of sight
You were the day, I was the night
I thought we were made together
In love since before, and till forever
But I was wrong, or so it seems
And though you're the girl of my dreams
Sometimes we have to face up to
The fact we've got to wake up new.

It's not that I'm done, or finished inside
But things are different, they have to be
You've pulled the plug on what we had
And that's okay, but I'm still sad
I miss you a little every day,
And sometimes I wish there was a way
To change what happened to what we wanted
But we've said goodbye, our hearts have parted
And though I was lost in the speed of sight,
As time goes on, sight's not as bright
As it used to be, when we were young
And love was new, and nothing was wrong

4 comments:

  1. Wow. Making me cry. :) It's beautiful, and especially so because I can sense it comes so completely from your heart...

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  2. May I cut/paste this poem to a friend who needs it? The last verse sounds so grounded in Christ. It brings these to mind:
    1 Corinthians 13:12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known.
    2 Corinthians 4:18 while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
    2Corinthians 5:7 We live by faith, not by sight.

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  3. Definitely! (Sorry for the delay, was out of town) Feel free to copy/paste anything you find here. :)

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